Sometimes the best way to find out, is not to hesitate, but to dive in (provided you know how to swim). Wish this same theory applies to my situation now. Every night i go to sleep, i think of it. It is also the first thing that comes into my mind when i wake up. And it has become the topic of discussion for as long as i can remember (meaning 2 weeks? i dunno, my memory kinda sucks). Choosing a degree PLUS and a university sucks big time. Of course with the endless tips/guides/league tables all over the internet, makes it even harder.
Maybe if my parents just forced if into doing something then i wouldn't be having this dilemma. But it is my future at stake here? So it's about what i want right? What if i am not sure about what i want, what if what i want, is not the best for me! Damn it this is so scary like a freaking nightmare. Being able to make a decision for myself is a problem, being forced into a decision is also a problem. WTF is wrong. I hate this shit. Emo like hell i wish i never have to grow up just like peter pan in neverland. Is it wrong wanting to stay young and live carefree?
Watching my sister laughing her ass off watching the big bang theory made me miss my sec school life so much. I used to come home (on days when i don't have tuition), and sit in front of the TV until at night. Then go to bed, repeat the process the following day.
I think if i am going to list everything that i am feeling right now this post will no doubt be the longest and crappiest post ever. And besides, i need to save some of the word vomit for my UCAS personal statement. Yes i know it's like super late but i guess it's worth a shot right? *trying to be optimistic here* please god give me the inspiration to write, 47 lines of brilliant stuffs to say would really help a lot.
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