Mundane Monday

Classes went on as usual today. Still could not get my brain started in the morning during chem lab period. Felt very groggy and did things without thinking much. Shit. Can i have a prescription for laziness?? Dreaming all the way until 11am cos that's when i get to eat!!

I desperately need to go out with my friends before i die of excessive studying. Okay, who am i kidding?! I just needed an excuse to go out.

Because ... my sister won 2 tickets to alice in wonderland premier at the curve. She is really hoping that i would go with her. But but, because i am in a so damn committed relationship with Mr.A, i really can't go! *very sad case* See i'm going crazy already. Naming my books Mr.A.

My fickleness, is really bothering me. Gosh i need to be more sure about myself and my decisions. Help! I need help!! With so many choices, how is it even possible to be 101% sure? If only someone could just make/force me to stick to my decisions. But this decision cannot play-play one. Knowing very well i should have started hunting earlier, i did not. Well, rather than beating myself up, i did do some research on some of the courses that interest me (definitely not engineering). *then why the eff am i taking physics* what the hellllllllllll i had been given so many opportunites to drop the subject. Yet, i still continue learning. Deep down inside i'm hoping this damn knowledge will help me someway somehow lah. Maybe it's because of the friends that encourage me, and the amazingly willing to help teacher.

P.S: Feelings of guilt suddenly swamped me. I need to get back to Mr.A.

P.P.S: I miss you, my bestie. I wanna eat like a pig with you, i wanna watch movies with you, i wanna gossip with you, i wanna camho with you, i wanna go bangsar with you ... and the list never ends!

omg why can't i just be a natural genius?