Cause I'm still trying to learn the art of love,
I'm still trying to not mess up,
So whenever I stumble let me know,
You need to spell it out for me.
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Sitting on my bed now. Feeling exhausted as HELL. My mind and body is so weak from the late nights. I am now staying at my ku cheh's house. Although the room i'm staying in is 1000 times more pretty than my current one, i can't help but feel homesick. *House is under construction*
Trying to set aside 20 minutes a day to type crap. I think it kinda helps me in some way, though some might think i should be doing homework. Only 6 months left with PM10, i really hope i can spend as much time with them, creating more beautiful memories. We were in the bio lab today, Ms.Lourds gave us some slides to view then draw. As usual, i didn't pay full attention, *was sitting behind with sk* so i ended up copying, again. The 2 hours of lab went by sooooo fast. Time flies when we're having fun!!
I thought i won't go back to my bad habit (sleeping in class) but i DID. It started yesterday, during physics, i just cannot tahan hearing about A.C/ Transformers. My plan was to drop physics this sem, but it turned out i scored A, (i expected worse) Quite a waste if i drop it right? Ughh. I don't even love physics in the first place. I only take it cos my dad asked me to. And that's because he is a frigging engineer. Of course he loves it.
A2 Maths is seriously damn tough. Last year, it was one of my favourite subject. This year, i HATE IT TO THE MAX. Especially integration, complex numbers and vectors! I'm trying my best to finish all the questions, but how is it possible if i don't know how to solve 'em? Stared at the question for 10 minutes. End up also tak boleh buat. Feel so stupid lah. Somebody please save me from this nightmare. Now, even with 4A's. WAIT, i don't know why i didn't fail my physics. I have a bad feeling that my 4A's will turn into 4D's. At this rate, i'm going to screw EVERYTHING up. And, the biggest question, what the hell am i supposed to do after a-levels?
With so much stuff going on in my head, do i even have time for love? Maybe, with a whole lot of blessings from god. I'm thankful with what i have now. But a little romance ain't gonna hurt right?
P.S: Love is a crazy thing. It makes us all happy but afraid at the same time.